I've started so many different posts trying to figure out what's been going on with me lately and what I want this blog to be going forward. I very nearly decided to throw the towel in completely, but while that idea sadly provides some sense of relief, it's not really and truly what I want. But I also don't want to go back to how things were. What it comes down to is the fact that so many book blogs post by a "formula," so when I started failing at the "formula" and life got busy, I stopped posting regularly (or at all, really.)
What exactly is this "formula" I speak of? Full length review posts at least once a week, a few regular memes, and discussion posts whenever inspiration strikes. And along with trying to "keep up" came pressure to stay on top of my review books and to post on a consistent basis. Don't get me wrong, this is a formula that works for a lot of people, but it just isn't working for me anymore.
I was also reading Jamie's post about feeling unbalanced and it really struck a chord. While she expressed feelings of books and reading taking over too much of her life, I have a slightly different concern. I feel like too much computer time has taken over my life. I'm on the computer a big chunk of the day for work and then I also spend an alarming amount of free time either attempting to update/freshen up this blog and various other time-suck activities (facebook, email, book shopping etc. etc.) and I'm starting to feel like my head is going to explode!
Now I don't want to give this up entirely, but I want to find a way to share my love of books while also cutting back on computer time. I've been seeing more and more blogs doing a monthly round-up type post like Christine has always done over on her blog Bookishly Boisterous and I'm wondering if something like that might work better for me. At the very least, I think I need to switch over to doing more mini-reviews and finding opportunities to share pre-blog books since I feel those really help define me as a lifelong reader. I have a TON of thoughts on my impossible-to-manage TBR pile and the incredible blessing/self-imposed curse that are ARCs, but I will save those for another day.
I really appreciate you lovely readers bearing with me through all this craziness. I'm hoping to find my way back to this corner of the internet, things just need to change and adjust. I think once I let go of how I "should be" doing things, it will all work out much better in the end.